Today marks the first anniversary of missing Tabitha. A year ago today, she returned to heaven. Her mother writes about it more beautifully than I ever could, but since this is a place for me to express how I'm feeling, I decided to share a poem I wrote.
A year has gone,
And it still feels wrong.
You're still not here,
And at times, the pain is near.
A different baby wearing an outfit you wore.
Another girl with the name that is yours.
A moment remembering.
A moment reliving.
And always knowing
And always believing
Your end was not the end.
That knowledge is what we cling to
Since we can't cling to you.
And most of the time, it's enough.
We love you.
I am up in Michigan right now, staying with my parents and brother's family. We went to their church's trunk or treat on Friday night. There was delicious chili, lots of candy, and tons of happy children running around.
Always in my mind, though, was the knowledge that Tabitha was at the trunk or treat last year but wasn't at Halloween. So close to the end. What a happy memory that Disney family had. (Tabitha was Daisy Duck, Emily was Minnie Mouse, Dan was Goofy, and Rachel was Mirabelle.)
I am so glad for all those happy memories.