Will I ever trust myself and someone else to become as "one flesh"? Will I ever be able to give someone that much power in my life? It sounds so wonderful and amazing, but it doesn't seem like something I will ever allow myself to experience. Oh, sometimes I wish I weren't the one in charge of my life, because I'm so messed up.
My birthday was nice. Jacob's present kind of freaked me out though. It was a little much. Three bags of candy, a DVD, a CD, and a huge photo frame with pictures of him and I. It seemed like something an engaged person would have. It's beautiful, but it shows too much time. His mission should be his priority—not me.