Thursday, May 26, 2005

no internet?!

so i was back in utah for this past week and a half. my roommates were busy getting everything ready for their wedding. since i had to bring a bunch of stuff home for the summer i had to drive so that i could have enough room so four days of that week and a half was just driving. but yeah so since we were driving it took forever and --no internet-- then i get to my apartment and find out that we apparently didn't get internet for this month so --no internet-- for even longer so i have been severly internet deprived.
*shout out* to jacob jackson for checking my email for me and then reading them over the phone.
so my roommates/cousins are both married now. melissa cannon and sarah marble. kind of weird. i'm really happy for them though. being a bridesmaid was a blast. if i can narrow it down to one picture i will post it on here. there were a lot of pictures taken though.
oh yeah i dyed my hair again. i'm not a brunette anymore.
why does life have to be full of so many choices?! i'm so sick of them. especially when someone always loses no matter what scenario is picked.
so i find out on friday whether we're going "grease" or "it's a bird, it's a plane, it's superman" i kind of hope it's superman... i wonder what part I'll get in which ever play the director's choose to do.
i hope jacob's arm is okay. he goes to the doctor tomorrow (well i guess today since it's almost two in the morning) he might have to have surgery on it. darn basketball.

WHY CAN'T EVERYTHING JUST WORK OUT?!

i had a deep talk with one of my friends today randomly. we were sitting in a catholic church listening to one of my friends practice the songs he and his cousin are singing at his sister's catholic wedding this saturday. sitting in the church made my friend and i think about religious things. we have really different points of view because i was raised LDS (mormon) and he was raised with no set religion. his parents thought he should get to chose for himself (but they raised him vegetarian regardless of whether he wanted to or not, so i think that's kind of interesting) but yeah so they didn't teach him anything. he just took it upon himself to go to bible school while he was in high school because he wanted to learn about christianity. he has picked a specific religious sect but he's looking. anyway so we got talking about abortion and homosexuality and war and the afterlife and it was really nice to actually talk to someone about beliefs and things that matter. so many conversations these days just are lacking intelligence and are just full of superfluous things.

i really, really have to go to bed.
and oh yeah, i'm really annoyed with how i say "good" when i'm supposed to say "well"

1: How did your year go?
2: Good.

AGH i'm so wrong to say that. I should have said "well" but it was too late and i sounded like an idiot and TWO people definitely corrected me at the same time. but hey at least they know what i should have said. i need to work on grammar. but i really don't feel like capitalization and the works are needed for this blog.

oh yeah when we were driving through colorado there was a store that said it sold "dry goods and notions" does anyone know what a notion is? i don't really have a notion what it could be.

***you had me at hello***

Friday, May 13, 2005

dream ugh

i had a horrible dream last night. it made me wonder if i am insecure about something right now.
so in my dream one of my best friends stole my boyfriend, my sister's love, all of my friends, singing career, and hottest dresses. then she framed me for murder and everyone believed her.
it was horrible. it was so believable that no guy could ever want me more than her. my boyfriend picking her was definitely the worst part. worse than the murder part.
and then my sister!
and my friends!
and my voice!
and my clothes
it was like dang girl... just shoot me.
so then i stood up one of my friends this morning because i still felt so horrible about the dream and hadn't actually realized that it wasn't real so i stood her up.
now that i realize that i am awake now and none of those things have happened, i feel really guilty about standing her up. but how am i going to explain that i had an evil dream about her???
hm... maybe she'll find it funny... flattering?

Monday, May 9, 2005

family

so i was able to go to richmond today. it was pretty nice to see a bunch of the cousins, aunts, uncles, and of course the wonderful grandparents.
i also went to indianapolis with the male cousins and my brothers. they're moving from muncie, richmond, and lafayette and buying a house together in indy. wow. there are some... "special" houses for sale there...
lets just leave it at that.
*cough*
so yeah. i love being home.
i love courtney workman.
it was so great seeing emily again.
and of course, bri, always a pleasure!!

Friday, May 6, 2005

delta jazz band

worth flying home early for.
it was great guys. i feel so worthless about missing it last year.
this year's was amazing good great
i think the best part was watching jacob's face whenever the guest musician (coffin or something... he was amazing) whenever he played something incredible jacob would get that look on his face. it was great.
there was a really, really talented junior named joy there too. wow. she composes music.
amazing how much talent there is lurking around in some people just waiting to be encouraged.
the dewitts were there too because sarah's boyfriend elliot was in the jazz band. he did really well too. it was cute watching her watch him do his thing.
*shout out* to all of those peeps that made the evening's performance great. it may have been the first band concert *cough* that i didn't fall asleep during
(never call it a band concert in jacob's presence... it's like a jazz show or the super sonic jazz extravaganza or something to that effect)

Tuesday, May 3, 2005

secrets

so one of the bad things about coming home is you start finding about all of the horrible things that happened to your beloved friends while you were gone that they never told you about because they knew it would just flip you out because you're across the country and can do absolutely nothing to help them. at least they trust you and love you enough to tell you when you get back. too bad they're not all like that. it's lovely to have to find out from other friends. i love you guys!